Wonderful Memory

Yesterday (September 3rd) was the year mark when we found out we were pregnant with baby #2.

I have wonderful memories of that day. I had felt sick for the last couple of weeks and thought just maybe (a very very small maybe) I was pregnant. I didn't think there was really any way I could be, but I just wanted to rule it out. Because I was convinced I wasn't pregnant I took a test while Canon was napping and Jess was at work. It immediately turned to two lines and I stood there frozen with my mouth wide open. We had a 10 month old and I had just stopped breastfeeding 2 weeks prior. After freezing for what seemed like an hour I started pacing our small living room up and down, literally. As I was pacing, I kept saying, "oh my gosh, oh my gosh". After doing that for probably 10 minutes I decided I needed to tell someone. Obviously I needed to tell Jess and I couldn't wait another 4 hours until he got home, so I called him and told him he needed to come home. Fortunately he only worked a couples miles away, so I didn't feel I was asking too much of him. He kept asking me why he needed to come home, but I wouldn't tell him. He finally agreed. Canon was still sleeping as he pulled up to our small town house. He walked through the doors in a panic and I lead him to our tiny half bath where the pregnancy test was laying on the counter top. He just looked at me and hugged me trying to console me. I was a little bit of a basket case since this was such a surprise. Do not get me wrong, I was so excited, but so nervous at the same time. Jess was shocked as well, but very happy!

After about 20 minutes he decided he better get back to work, so I called one of my best friends and told her to come over. Her and her husband were on their way home from running errands so they swung by.  Laurie knew by my tone of voice on the phone that I was pregnant. She walked in and I freaked out on her, but was laughing and crying at the same time. Good times.... ;)

So that evening we set out to find a big brother shirt for Canon as we wanted to skype with family to tell them the wonderful news. We found Canon a sweet shirt and started skyping. We skyped with my mom and dad then my sister and brother in law. After that we skyped with Jess's parents and the next morning we told both of his brothers through skype. We had Canon wear the shirt each time and held him up to the camera. Every single person was shocked but so excited!!!

I will never forget that day. I will never forget the Lord blessing us with another precious baby. I will never forget how proud I felt. I LOVE being pregnant despite how sick I get. I will never forget hearing that perfect sounds of a heartbeat the first time we heard Will's. I will never forget holding Canon and telling him he was going to be a big brother. 

Even though the pregnancy didn't turn out how I would have liked it to, I am so honored to have carried such a miracle and to have held him in my arms even though it was for such a short time. 

Rachel