I Need Help
"I need help" was not in my vocabulary before I got hospitalized with Will. I saw needing help a weakness (at least outside of Jess and me). I thought people wouldn't think I had it all together. I was a seminary wife and now a pastor's wife and seminary/pastor's wives are supposed to have it all together right? ha! With this philosophy I was wearing myself out. We rarely left Canon with anyone. I had never spent a night away from Canon.
Wow was I in for a huge awakening. "I need help" has now become a common phrase I have used the past 5 weeks. Even before I was hospitalized I started needing more help due to my huge belly, but I still felt guilty asking for help. The day we found out Will was sick we didn't have a choice to ask for help. We were told to pack a bag and get to the hospital as soon as we could. We then found out I would be in the hospital for days, for weeks, or for even months.
Jess and I needed help. People wanted/want to help. They want to serve you in time of need. I have learned there are many people that are gifted in serving and helping out in time of need. I am totally impressed with them and I want to strive to have a servant's heart. Like I said I am totally impressed and have so much respect for people helping us out.
Here are just a few things that have been such a blessing to us:
Staying with Canon while I was in the hospital
Watching Canon so I could rest and Jess could catch up on work
Going grocery shopping for us
Cleaning our house
Doing our laundry
Brining us a home made meal in the hospital
Bringing us meals (Tupperware or foil dishes are awesome) at home
Giftcards to use for when there are tough days ahead and I don't feel like cooking
Someone organizing the bringing of meals so we didn't have to even think about it
Watching Canon so Jess and I can go out or so I could get out with some girls
Coming over just to take my mind off things
The list goes on and on. I am so thankful for people's willingness to serve us and help! I am amazed that the help keeps coming even 4 weeks after Will's death. One family friend called and asked if she could come a specific morning to watch Canon or clean our house. How sweet! We took her up on it! I pray that I can learn from our situation and serve others in the way I have been served.
I do not think asking for help is a weakness anymore. It is a blessing.
More than anything I have learned to ask the Lord for help. He wants me to ask. He has my best interest. He never changes. He wants me to lean on Him and give my burdens to Him. I can't do this life on my own without Him.
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Mat 28:11
I am thankful God teaches us lessons and brings us to His word.
Rachel
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