Longing for

I always miss Will and think of him constantly and tonight is no exception. Tonight I feel almost numb and wishing things were different. Canon and I were watching videos of Canon earlier today when he was a baby. I loved watching them, but it was hard for me to not wonder. I wondered if Will would have acted the same way, what his laugh would have sounded like, what would have been his first word, would he have found me funny like Canon did/does, ect. 

I miss Will terribly. I trust the Lord and his plans. I am thankful for his grace and comfort. I am thankful there will be no pain in Heaven. I have and continue to learn so much through Will's death, but the pain is still strong and real and I wish he was here with me. I wish he was in the spare bedroom (his room) sleeping. I wish that I was checking on him before I went to sleep like I do for Canon.

I pray I wake up refreshed in the morning!

  

I love you Will!