I don't know if I am having a hard time adjusting back to a routine, but this week has been tough. I use this blog as a journal for our family and most of my posts are about happy fun things we have done or awesome updates about my cute kids, but some days in the "Life of the Rainers" aren't so fun and not post worthy.
I have been feeling very inadequate as a mom lately. The days Canon won't obey, throws himself on the floor in public, Harper won't nap, I forget to put a pull up on Canon during nap time and he wets all over himself and is distraught, I raise my voice at Canon because I am stressed, and I forget to put dinner in the oven, I start to question how good of a mom I am. Whew. Also, there are some days I have hard grief over Will. Yesterday I had to pray myself through the day. The kids were great, but some days I just don't deal with "life" very well. (I do know there are people that are dealing with major heart breaking issues that are far worse than what I am experiencing.)
Thankfully (and I mean thankfully) the Lord's mercies are new every day!
Thankfully (and I mean thankfully) the Lord's mercies are new every day!
Some days I find it hard to be selfless. I am learning this life is not all about me, but about serving God and others. I am so thankful the Lord called me to be a mommy to Canon, Will, and Harper. I am thankful for this crazy season in life, but it is ONLY a season and I am trying to do it as graceful as possible.
Now here are some happy pictures of my little ones.
Man, he loves holding her.
Now here are some happy pictures of my little ones.
Man, he loves holding her.
Are you done taking pictures of me yet?
Canon's Christmas pajamas he wore his first Christmas.
2 comments:
Oh sister! I hear you and I am not even dealing with what life is throwing your way right now. I just wanted to let you know... you are SO NOT ALONE. It's tough being "on your best game" 24 hours a day. And, to add to it all, mommy guilt is really hard...you know, when you question everything you are doing for your children. Take heart sweet Rachel. Your babies know they are very loved, you can tell just by looking at their precious faces :) I pray you are feeling more into your routine. Being away from home for any amount of time is just tricky.
Dude, Canon is HUGE! And Harper? Geez! You two aren't Jess and Rachel. You're Jess, Rachel, Canon, and Harper! I feel very old...
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