Life of the Rainers

Learning

I do not by all means think I know all the answers when it comes to mothering. I actually think quite the opposite. I have many insecurities when it comes to mothering Canon. I do feel lately a lot of lights have been off lately and I am starting to "get" it a little. I have become much more laid back lately due to becoming more confident in my decisions even though this is still an area that needs growth.

Lately I feel like the Lord is showing me and teaching me lessons through being a mother.

Here are two things that have been brought to my attention as I have gone about my days being a mom.

Lesson #1

I have been discouraged lately about some of Canon's behaviors. He has regressed to biting and throwing his food again. I thought we were past these behaviors. He hadn't bit or thrown his food in months, but now it is almost a daily thing. The lesson isn't how I have figured out how to get him stop. The lesson is to stay patient and consistent. I was cleaning up food from the floor today while being frustrated and it hit me. How many times do I do this? Not throwing food or biting, but regressing into a behavior that is not appropriate. The Lord stays patient with me. This thought humbled me and has given me more patience to ride out the biting and throwing of food.

Lesson #2

Lately I have caught myself putting Canon down in front of others. Someone will say Canon is such a easy going child and my response sometimes is "yea he is but ......". How discouraging is that to say in front of Canon. I really dislike that. Ugh, it makes me angry at myself just thinking about it. If there is really an issue I need to not flippantly talk to someone about it, I need to save it to talk to a friend, Jess, or family in private about it. Please keep me accountable in this area. I am not against talking about issues with a friend in front of Canon just being careful with my words and not putting him down.

Any one have any thoughts about this?

Rachel